Call me Dolores

Messiah — Fri, 17 Jul 2009 17:11:17 +0000

Obviously I’m not living full-time as Dolores. Transvestism is not the same as transsexuality and I’m perfectly happy as a bloke. I probably dress once or twice a week at the moment. And no, I’m not gay. It’s as if I fancy women so much, I want to be one – but only on a temporary basis.

And no, I haven’t had a breakdown – I’ve been dressing as Dolores – not Delores — for years. In fact, my ex-girlfriend Annie initially encouraged my exploration of my feminine side – although only in private. I’ve been going out dressed in public since I stopped going out with her three years ago. Since then, I’ve seen very little of her and not at all this year so she really is in no position to judge my mental state. I have though on many occasions offered to explain my journey to her but she doesn’t want to listen.

Any spiritual teacher will tell you that the ultimate goal of the journey is to combine and balance the masculine and feminine. The Biblical Jesus says “I am Male and Female”. The equal-armed, Messianic Cross – the symbol of the Christ – represents this balance of the masculine and feminine.

Over the years, I have been in enormous conflict with all sorts of authority, beginning with my mother and taking in MI5 and the British judiciary on the way. That ‘up-and-at-them’ male energy has to be counter-balanced with a strong feminine energy, which I get from getting dolled up – and feeling sexy.

As the Christ, I’m the begotten of Jesus the Father and Gaia, the divine mother and goddess of love and sexuality. She does not incarnate into this world. I’m therefore the closest you will get to an incarnation of Gaia also known as the Magdalene.

There are three spiritual states we can live in – bliss, euphoria and ecstasy. I don’t know why but a bit of red lippy, a sexy frock and a pair of killer heels can help in achieving those states. Ironically, it is dressing as a woman that has helped me stay sane – particularly during high stress periods of my life like the court case and being on the run.

It’s also given me an insight into a woman’s perspective on life – you can get very cold when you have no body hair and are wearing skimpy clothing! Even though I’m not gay, I’ve been chatted up by men so I’ve seen a side of them I wouldn’t have seen otherwise.

People forget that God has a sense of humour – making his chosen one a tranny must be the biggest joke of all time. There is though a serious point being made here. If you are offended by or condemning of a man in a frock then you are not on the journey of love.

Leonardo da Vinci paints a mirror image of himself as the Mona Lisa. Clearly Mona Lisa is a transvestite, and Leonardo was a previous incarnation of the Jesus soul. I am the last incarnation of the Jesus soul. One of the greatest mysteries in art is the secret of the Mona Lisa’s smile. The answer is simple – Jesus Christ is a transvestite.”

Mona Lisa is not the only example. There are goddesses like Liberty, Britannia, Semiramis, who are depicted with muscular shoulders and square jaws. They are clearly transvestites.

In ancient temples there are depictions of transvestite priests. The Hebrew term ‘Kadosh-Kadosh’, meaning ‘Holy of Holies’ can also be transliterated into English as ‘Qadesh-Qadesh’, referring to the said priests who performed sexual rituals in the temple. One of the greatest mistranslations in the Bible is to translate ‘Qadesh’ as ‘Sodomite’. To this day, priests in a variety of religions wear robes resembling frocks as a symbol that they stand in for the Messiah until he arrives.

Strangely the name Dolores meaning sorrow (or variations on it) comes up in religious and esoteric writings about the Prophecy. The Biblical Christ bears his cross up the Via Dolorosa or the ‘Suffering Way’. There are also three ‘Dolorous Strokes’ in the esoteric. The Biblical Christ suffers the first when he is lanced through the side on the cross. The Fisher King or King Arthur, another incarnation of the Jesus soul, is wounded in the leg – or the genitals – as a result of the second.

And the third Dolorous Stroke is said to happen when the End Times are to begin. In my novel, the heroine is called ‘Dolores Kane’, like my femme name. She wounds the hero of the novel by stabbing him in the leg, although you think that she’s wounded him in the genitals. Although my novel has never been published, this passage was published on the Guardian’s website in 1999.

Sorry about the cheap wig but I live a simple life and can’t afford expensive realistic wigs. But if anyone has a long red or blond wig to kindly donate, I’d be extremely grateful. (No brunette wigs though: I’d look too much like me mam).

As either the Christ or the Magdalene, my message is the same. Love God with all your heart. And love your neighbour as yourself. That means never judging others.

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Call me Dolores

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